This is a compiled list of movies I need to watch & books I would like to read. I will probably edit it often. But this is just so I don't have to write everything down. Fuck that. Haha. You can ignore this if you'd like




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Bad day. Very angry day, ending up depressed. I seriously don't see the point to anything (that will go away... it usually does, but lately it's been very prevalent). I suspect lack of sleep is culprit. And I am very stressed out, which just adds to it, and the lack of sleep contributes to it. So I have become rather depressed, especially today. I simply feel exhausted. Of course, the stress makes me break out, just what I need. I know it's a petty thing, indeed, it's just rather obnoxious, and does not help my already bad mood. I felt rather off-kilter in general today. I have a lecture to go to at SU about genetics around 7:15 (I hope Galen remembers he has to pick me up). I despise when I feel like this.

I am so incredibly happy Obama won. However, I think everyone knew that was what was going to happen.
As for music, I have gotten into so much new music lately. I gave Strapping Young Lad a good listen, and discovered I really like them, more than I initially thought, the same for Nevermore. Via SYL I got into Devin Townsend. Devin Townsend is brilliant. 'Nuff said. Also he's quite amusing, hippie-like and Canadian. That is made of awesome. I re-listened to the new Cradle of Filth album. It really is amazing, and shows Dani Filth's writing ability so fully, and it being a concept album about a serial killer. I've also been listening to a lot of MeloDeath lately (In Flames, Dark Tranquillity, etc). And M.I.A. Her music is so addictive.
I barely have time to watch films or do anything besides homework and sleep. How fantastic.
I am now on a gluten- & dairy-free diet for health reasons.

I am so pissed. I am so fucking pissed. I fucking hate everyone right now, I'm not fucking bullshitting either. People are such idiots, not saying that I'm not, I know I am. But sometimes, I really don't know what the fucking hell people are thinking. I can't deal with people right now. I try to be optimistic, but it doesn't seem to work for me, especially when I'm pissed off, over-tired and stressed out. Fucking insomnia.
I know a few of the reasons I am so frustrated with everyone are stupid and petty, and I try not to feel them, but I can't. Being exhausted and stressed is making me irate and rather depressed. Trying to do all of these college things, coursework, homework, and projects. I barely see my friends, and I'm barely spending time on the internet, the television, or etc. Yet I still do not seem to get all of my work done. Thankfully I am able to do work at lunch, but I might be switching tables to have a change. Also I have a lot of classes with Galen & Kerry. I love them, but I need to get the fuck away from them for a while. Also, even though I have two classes with Dan where I sit next to him, it feels like I barely see him. I just hope it isn't perceived that my motive for sitting there is because of a certain someone. I just feel like this is going to be very awkward. Or that I'm going to take someone's spot. I need to get away from everyone but Tim & Dan for a month.
I really wish my mother would stop talking in fucking platitudes and let me turn up the heat for the house 2 fucking degrees. I'm so fucking cold and my blood is barely circulating.

I bought a "The Dark Knight" shirt and three pairs of pants, as well as AP books. So I'm rather happy. Twilight of the Thunder God is fantastic, however, I forgot that it came out in the States yesterday. Haha. I don't really have anything to talk about now. Besides the really attractive guy at the store where I bought the shirt. Indeed.

Very happy because I'm getting a new mp3-player after my previous one went into a coma which it will not be coming out of. Also this new one has 10 more gigabytes of space, making it have 30gb & it is refurbished, so it was half-price. I'm rather pleased about that I have to say. But all this coursework is killinngg me. I am so tired because I was up for quite a while on a bio exam, but I still don't think I did very well on it.
Not too good.
I had better get a good night's sleep tonight. Another thing is that I am expecting the Black Ice soundtrack sometime soon... because Helene bought it for me for my birthday. oO You see. Helene is from Austria (last year's foreign exchange student) and I, out my friends really reached out to her I guess? And we got along really well. So she's sending me a (belated) birthday gift. I feel a bit bad, because I'm expecting it wouldn't exactly inexpensive, as she is sending it from Austria to Central New York. Hm.
Not to mention I thought she was joking about asking me what I wanted for my birthday. I mean it is something I really wanted, and it isn't available in the States. If I did purchase it, it would cost at least $25 without shipping. Damn dollar, being so fucking worthless. Especially now, our fucking economy is "in a crisis." I don't believe it's as bad as they say, not to say it's not bad, but I think they're just trying to frighten us. I hate politics, but I have to pay attention or else then what am I going to do when we have shitty people running our government (as we do now)? And I am unhappy that I cannot vote this year. I'm only one year off. I say that's not fair. But if I could vote, I wouldn't know who to vote for. I'd probably vote Green Party, in all honesty, because at least I voted.
I just hate how our government is run or that the race is governed over by people who are at extreme ends, though McCain is a moderate Republican. Palin not so much. Teresa dressed up as her today, Kogut was her "twin" and dressed up as McCain. They were quite good, everyone had a laugh.
I found an interesting group of books from a publisher called "Forgotten Books" which include works by Saxo Grammaticus (think Prince of Jutland, but text), all sorts of mythologies, esoteric, occult and such works. I was quite happy with this.

Just watched it. Really good, especially for a Western. Because of Bale I think I have discovered I enjoy more genres of movies than I thought I did. Though of course sci-fi/dark/action & fantasy are always my favorite. :)
There were many good actors in this film.
I watched it on tv-links.cc, which I am disappointed I forgot about. I could have watched this & Rescue Dawn on it over the summer, as well as a decent version of Swing Kids. What a shame. Oh well, I remembered it and watched 3:10 to Yuma today. It is really good, but has a strange ending, though an ending suiting to a Western, I would assume. Bale pulls off the accent well, I believe, and works well with it, because it is not as thick (his character is originally from Massachusetts).
There is a definite homoerotic overtone between Charlie & Ben Wade, though it is definitely one-sided, as Ben doesn't seem to acknowledge, or at least only uses Charlie's affection for him. This may partially be because I saw something on LOGO about it, but really, if you listen at one point to Charlie's voice when he says "I'll wait for you" it doesn't sound like a lackey talking to "Boss" as he so frequently calls him, it's rather subtle, but it's there. I do think it's a good movie, probably not one I'll buy, but a good one, for sure. I want to read the short story now... Bale films are adding so much literature to my already-large reading list.

Uhm. No. Do NOT make another Pirates of the Caribbean film.
But they are. I had heard mentionings of it before the making of the third movie, but I thought that was just silliness, especially after Gore Verbinski said that the third one would be the final one.
But I guess he changed his mind or just lied. Or it's a different producer or something along those lines.
What the hell is this? I mean I love them to a degree I guess, especially the first... After that they were a bit disappointing, I have to say. But they're making a FOURTH? Please, no. That's plainly terrible. It was said numerous times that it was a trilogy. Argh. No. And it isn't as if Johnny Depp doesn't have enough films that he's working on/going to work on.
Eh. I don't like this.
On another note, Mr. Depp is going to be the Mad Hatter in Tim Burton's Alice in Wonderland. That, however, will be amazing, I wager. He seems perfect for that role, and Tim Burton is quite the creative genius himself.

Yesterday was officially the first day of Autumn, my favorite season. :)
Of course, I am a bit disappointed because I was unable to do anything for Mabon, but it's alright. I bought cider and had a lot of fruit for lunch.
David Copperfield is very good, actually. I've decided I love Victorian literature, and that Dickens really is good; just not abridged. Do not read Dickens abridged, it makes it so dry & boring. For 9th grade/freshman year all of class read A Tale of Two Cities abridged for English, it was not good. It's not to say I didn't enjoy the book. It is simply that it is so incredibly much better, granted it is very long. But I can deal with that. Apparently I can have it read in 28 days if I read 2-3 chapters a day. That is also fine with me, I enjoy, and have always enjoyed reading.
Elena has suggested meeting a few of her friends, both of which seem cool and eccentric. One is a metalhead, apparently, the other just has a good taste in music. I need to see Elena soon anyhow, it has been months since she and I have done something together.
I had other things to say which I do not remember, but that is alright.
Time to take Charlie (neighbor's dog) for a walk.

 

Movie

A Midsummer Night's Dream

It was good. Not as good as I would have hoped, but good. Then again what can you expect from a modern Shakespeare movie? Most actors/actresses cannot pull that off nowadays. Calista Flockhart certainly couldn't, as Hermia. She, in all honesty was the main weakness of the film, because her character proved to be rather central, which was disappointing. The rest of the actors did quite well, but Kevin Kline, Mr. Bale, Rupert Everett, Michelle Pfeiffer and Stanley Tucci did especially well. I really enjoyed the "fairy realm" as it were. So colorful, glittering and mystical. And oh so many British accents! That was enjoyable. As well as a nearly-naked Bale. Quite nice. All in all it was a cute little film, and helped me understand a lot more of the play, which I read before watching.

Books/Literature

( Blood Canticle by Anne Rice (spoilers) )
Running with Scissors: A Memoir by Augusten Burroughs

This was a good. Much better than the movie, as I have been told, though the movie is decent. Very readable, I finished it within two days. It was easy to write precis about it, because it was just so enthralling. It was humorous, edgy and horrifying all at once. Very quirky, and I definitely recommend it.

A Midsummer Night's Dream by William Shakespeare

Brilliant, as are all works by The Bard. I really enjoyed it, the poetry and prose was beautiful, but it was also quite humorous. Certain things I did not quite comprehend while reading, however were quickly smoothed over by watching the film. A good read, a good read for beginners in Shakespeare, because in comparison to say MacBeth, Hamlet or Romeo & Juliet it is quite easy, though Romeo & Juliet is a fairly easy read as well, at least in my opinion.

So I FINALLY watched The Crow in its entirety. I have to say I'm rather pleased with myself. What's cool is that it came on just after I listened to the live version of Omnia's cover of The Raven sooo many times. I love it so much. It's so beautiful and captivating. At this rate I'll have the actual poem of The Raven memorized easily. I mean I just about have Annabel Lee & Jabberwocky memorized because of The Cruxshadows' readings of those wonderful poems. And then of course I know Act IV of MacBeth because of Omnia.
Anyways. Back to The Crow. I really enjoyed it. It reminds me of a mixture of Equilibrium and Sweeney Todd, if that makes any sense at all, with a bit of the Batman/Bruce Wayne darkness thrown in. Oh so many revenge films, and how I love them.

Okay, it's fantastic because Omnia is generous enough to give "pay as much as you'd like" audio material from their new DVD PaganFolk at the Fairy Ball Live out via the Pagan Clan fanclub, I feel bad not paying anything, but I'll make up for it by putting my money into PaganFolk which I mean to do in May. But it didn't happen. But since this is strictly in mp3 form it is slightly unfortunate since my mp3 player just went into a coma after I dropped it.
>.<;;
I am not at all happy about this. Nor am I too thrilled about the precis for philosophy class.
I also happen to have growing amounts of pressure in my head. It is rather uncomfortable.
I also have to finish Running with Scissors sooner than I thought.
Oh well... I'll find a way to get all of this done... If I don't fall asleep first...

Today was... interesting? We had Tim's birthday celebration. That was cool. But as soon as you involve CBA people, drama ensues. And I feel rather sick. Ugh. Damn Mexican food.
Ha.
So on top of the cold & intense sinus pressure I have a stomach ache. Oh well. I only have myself to blame, and that was my dinner so it works. I got David Copperfield and Running with Scissors. So that's cool; I'm excited to read those. I just have to finish Blood Canticle & A Midsummer Night's Dream, both of which are fabulous, of course. The movie of A Midsummer Night's Dream is in the mail from NetFlix. Mabon is quickly approaching & Galen says we need to watch it to celebrate Mabon. I'm not at all averse to that idea. I am excited though, that is probably the one pagan festival I've never celebrated, in one form or other. I don't quite know why, because autumn is my most adored holiday. It's getting dark so quickly now, I seem to have forgotten how fast dusk moves in. It's already 7:12 (19:12), and it's getting rather dark. I love autumn, even though it's obviously not quite there yet. It's still summer until we hit the equinox, which is soon. Mead, cider & wine anyone?

I just got a cellphone, a plethora of good food, 2 Christian Bale DVDs (American Psycho: Uncut & Harsh Times) though my mom is saving them for Yuletide, but whatever. I have them. And they were very well-priced. Which is why I love Target. They're not as evil as Walmart, but they still have good prices and pay their workers well! And it's just a much nicer store. So much cleaner. I am not only excited about that, but I had a Vitamin Energy drink. So I'm a bit wired right now...

I am really, really excited. I was excited before, but now I REALLY am. Not only does Johnny Depp have a plethora of amazing films coming soon, many of them are with Tim Burton, then one is with Christian Bale (Public Enemies), and another with Heath Ledger (RIP) [The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus]. Do you know how exciting this is for me? My favorite director & actors working together on projects that seem amazing. That is beyond amazing. I am ecstatic about it and so happy that there are so many films that are coming out for me to see at the theater. At the moment there isn't much that is good besides The Dark Knight and Pineapple Express, granted Pineapple Express is very outlandish and ridiculous in the areas of comedy. I have so much homework and studying to do. It's rather stress-inducing for me, which is not helping my cold which worsens by the day. I know I keep complaining about it but it is simply so frustrating with the beginning of school. I can't not go to school. I can't miss anything, besides the Philosophy contract only allows me 2 sick days. Which is fine with me anyways, but that could be potentially threatening to my grade if I have to miss more than 2. I feel so bogged down and claustrophobic as far as my overall schedule (not my school schedule, that is amazing). And I have yet to start anything for art, because we've either not had the right supplies or had to help with set-up for the social.

I am getting sick, more sick than I was. I don't like it. At all. It's rather annoying. A stress & lack of sleep-induced cold. It's going around. I am really happy I brought my (art) portfolio into school today. I want to see what Mrs. B thinks of it. Currently working on AP Bio work & watching Monty Python & the Holy Grail. Yes, I'm such a multi-tasker. This may explain (partly) all of my insomnia. Hm. In about twenty minutes, however I shall be going to Justin's "event"--aka social aka dance--and helping out beforehand with setting up. I'm only in it for the artistic part and to see/meet CBA people. People can perform music, etc, etc. I might just read some poetry of mine... But I'm not at all sure about it. I don't like getting up in front of large groups of people... Yet, once I get up there I'm fine. It's just before actually doing it that I get anxious. oO
My friends will probably coerce me into doing it, and I probably will but between that time and now I shall be debating it internally. It rained today and it made me rather happy. Tina, Chelsea & I "frolicked" in the rain, which was quite amusing, and it made the principal tell us that we were going to get wet. I replied that that was precisely the point.

School is draining my self-esteem, half of my confidence and I feel extremely self-conscious, especially today. House (homeroom) is awfully awkward. At least for me. I don't really talk to many people there besides Paul, everyone else is rather eh. So this is incredibly boring for me, not to mention a tad bit stressful. Because this is how I am. And the people on the bus are fucking obnoxious. The underclassman get worse every year. I am sure that many people think that, but, it is indeed the truth. Fr. Dan is awesome however, and I really enjoy philosophy. Psychology shall be interesting. I'm debating whether or not to ask if I can read American Psycho for it. (Creepily enough I went to look for a synopsis and a girl named Jess reviewed it... and used the term "pure brilliance" [a favorite of mine], I thought that was a bit funny...)That would be rather awesome, I think. I feel extremely jealous lately with the males I am attracted to. And there are several of them, which I know would want nothing to do with me other than to be friends. Or nothing, really. But my mind wanders to them nonetheless. I did not need to change my schedule for AP Art or Drawing & Painting III; but of course that was because it would have been impossible, since I have AP Bio period 3 then, which is immovable, and the only DPIII class is then. But we found a compromise that will hopefully be acceptable. I no longer have a study hall (replaced by AP Art/DPIII) which is fine with me. Even if I had wanted to I would not be able to get work done. I get too distracted. I have been zoning out a lot lately; I also feel as if I am getting sick--both of these things caused by lack of sleep, I am quite certain. Something I can never seem to get enough of, even if I sleep for a decent amount of time. And now Alice, one of my four cats is sniffing my face and unconveniently located in front of the computer...